Happy weight;

I know I'm not the only girl out there that puts on the happy pounds...

In the 3 months that we've been together (4 months including when we started talking) I've put on 20lbs. On top of the 20lbs(ish) I gained right out of High School... I know it's something I have control over, but as dumb as it sounds I feel like I gained it over night... it wasn't gradual, just bam! One day none of my jeans fit & I felt like a busted can of biscuits no matter what I wore.

My weight was always a struggle, and HUGE insecurity for me all through HS. I finally began realizing that my weight, in no way, shape, or form defines me as a person. I still feel that way, but I'm so uncomfortable with myself I don't ever want to do anything. My boyfriend loves me, and my body just how it is. But I just can't look at myself the way I used too.

I know diets & working out are the obvious answer, but my life is just so hectic. I'm a full time 5 day a week, 6 hours a day nursing student, I work 24 hours over the weekend, then add in homework, my 45 minute drive to get anywhere, and then just normal errands, I have NO free time. If I didn't live with my boyfriend, I'd never see him.

I'm going to try to atleast eat better, I can't stick with a 'diet', but something's got to give. I want to start feeling better about myself.

I'll leave you with some pictures of me back when I liked my body...

Love is in the air;

Justin Dean Polk,

This guy is my rock, my shoulder to cry on, my whole world. I'd be so lost with out him.

He makes the darkest times seem so much better. He pushes me to do my best, even when our relationship suffers because of it. He wants to to reach my dreams just as much as I do. He makes me laugh, he's taught me to laugh at myself, something I used to think impossible. He turns downs in to ups, always see's the positive in negative situations. He puts up with my overbearing, overreacting, super anoyying self. But most of all, he loves me, and every fucked up, mean, anoyying, thing about me. He's taught me to love myself, he makes me feel beautiful, he can make me laugh at anything. He makes me happier than I ever thought possible.